Sunday, October 14, 2007

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eron. My mother told me that they were not so many years and I did remember, my grandmother died when I was seven, my brother was a year earlier. Licho left before I turned seven, I told my mother. When I woke up I saw that bear pancho, still keep, true, twenty years now. I turned to dreams and inevitable, painful but true, I took the past. I was the last of nine children. It was not planned and my mother arrived in the worst of times. What to her was irrevocable sign of menopause resulted in a pregnancy that did not discover until after seven months. My mother had no patience for raising children. A month before my birth came to the world their first grandchild, she was a grandmother, had children who werefrom twenty to six years, a baby was a burden I did not want. I was born, despite his age, his rejection. His mother, my grandmother took me away and I guess my mother was relieved. My grandmother lived in a small room in the courtyard of the family home. Years before, when my mother had her first pregnancy, which resulted in non-identical twins, my grandmother took over the boy, my brother Elisha. When I was born my brother was over twenty years, worked and lived with my grandmother, he was the spoiled son of my grandmother, I became their darling.
I suppose, I do not remember, I was happy. My grandmother was my mother and my brother that I wanted to please father. My grandmother had a bad habit to distinguish myself froms in my grandmother when my brother got married and moved to another state. I remember how painful night, the time when the castle collapsed when my brother went. He came to my bed with that big bear, still in its plastic bag, a bear that had my size. Did you think shoveling my pain with the gift? I do not remember who told me, hugged the bear, I went outside to say goodbye. I do not remember if I cried, I think not, but the pain got me chest was like acid. So I met abandonment.
With a huge bad luck I could only witness the fall of the castle. I hugged the bear was called pancho, similar to that Licho that call to my father, brother, similar to that cheo who used his wife. The illness of my grandmother went from bad to worse, the baldhospitals river began. Alone, and the force returned to the family where I wanted. My grandmother died in the hospital, I died waiting for his return. My grandmother, mother of clay that I loved, but also made me different, that incite hatred of my brothers and my parents' indifference. I learned listening to his death behind a door and did not cry. It was the first death in my family had many children and adults reaction was not letting us see the body. We took home one of my sisters, we were entertained with games. I knew that giving me her hand again. Bear hugged and squeezed my silent pain. When I told the children cried, not because I hurt, I copied what they did. I took the funeral.

My faily thought that the fastest cure the pain was to erase the memories. My parents collapsed our small house, gave away our things. I turned to shoot in arid land. My roots were in the grave with my grandmother, a drought of love my leaves withered. When I returned to school knew nothing, my mind was the pain she took shelter with a blanket of forgetfulness. Still does, but I sometimes glimpse bits of the old pain.

The first suicide attempt also went to seven years in one of these visits from my brother, who were as rare as seeing rain frogs. I guess during that time, and some years later, I was hoping that he returned for me. During that visit he spoke to the adults, I made a gesture of affection, do not remember biennialNo, and he refused. It hurt so much, I think there I began to understand that he had left behind me, as you leave a sweater that you no longer remains. I climbed to the roof, broke a bottle of soda, then were made of glass, and tried to slit my wrists. My poor child of seven years, where did you get that idea? "There knew that death was the best remedy? My brother went a little later and I found the glass on my wrist. He said nothing, took my hand and we went together. What happened next I do not remember, but I think he said or did nothing. Years later, too, after a hospitalization for an overdose of antidepressants, after a few seconds in the death of the white light filled with an unknown peace after half a lifetime of pain, my brother

Thursday, September 27, 2007

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Pastel died Saturday. It was the latest in a long line of dwarf hamster who were born in my house. She was beautiful, mischievous, playful, with a genius of a thousand demons. She loved running on the wheel and could not peel the sunflower seeds, I had to open for her. Sopho survived him his loving family.

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Saturday, August 11, 2007

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Last night I dreamed I was with my sister at the hospital. She was lying on a bed and sitting at the top, left side, there was a girl. I asked my sister if she wanted to give him a massage on her feet (she can not walk), and I said yes. But when I tried to touch her she felt much pain, not matter how the play, or just put my hands over without touching it, the pain stopped and I went to look for a nurse to help.

Later I dreamed I was in the courtyard of a church and climbed like a ramp leading

Sunday, July 22, 2007

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Do you know what happens when you keep too many secrets? There comes a time when you can not breathe. That happens to me. Twenty years I've been keeping secrets, dying because of them, suffering every day. Longing to live a normal life, without thinking that I can not be like the others, I can not be happy. The sadness you feel when you read my fics, that's me, that sentence without truce, the perennial disease, despair that has no end. That anxiety you feel, the pain lasts you a few moments, my whole life, every day, every hour, every second. I evaded writing, playing evaded me, I evaded containing air, and I can not anymore. I reached a point where I have only two ways: either get out of this well or kill me. CH TMLXC

I live and I will give battle. But if I fail, if one day just disappear, if you expect these sequels do not come, then you want to be in a better place and to find the peace that he had.

If you see me on the messenger not talk to me about this. There is nothing you can do for me and I do not know what to say.

Tuesday, July 17, 2007

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ng fertile males gave rise to countless battles. Slavery had been restored in many countries, males were fertile, both human and human animals, the main meat of the traffickers. These battles are now subject of history books, but for sexual slavery was not abolished. Over the years the population of fertile men and males was balanced, and one could say that life is almost like it was before the death of women.
The pair fought for the survival of natural resources like oil and nuclear energy had to be abandoned. Our world is moving to solar energy and perhaps because of that global warming stopped. We are a common civilization, with a few curiosages.




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Wednesday, March 14, 2007

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¿¿¿¿¿ What ondaaaaaaaaa with those Chinese ????? It reminded me of a school who is extremely friendly, the typical effeminate. God I laughed.



>> the worst thing is I thought I have no choice xDDDDDDD yaoi. I declare myself a fan of these two xDDDDDDDDDDDDD.

Wednesday, February 7, 2007

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know, my sister is going to die ... no, there is no possible cure, the tumor is inoperable head and the cancer spread to the bones. But hope is the last thing you want to lose, resigned to death is difficult. Today I talked to her and said he was certain he would die. "I have nine years before this and did not think so, now I know I'll die." I would like to tell you how my mother, no daughter, that's not going to happen. Is that what you wanted to hear? It was time to get afloat theory, research, cases. I was reminded of that family who had a terminal illness and had no awareness that he would die. I remember their faces when I brought them in to be prepared. There was a day Fáeasy for them, today was my day difficult. I sat beside him and told him that if he had the feeling we should prepare as if it happened or not. He told me that he wanted to find a thanatological not for her, rather to her children and her husband. Wanted her husband to ask for a loan if the insurance does not cover all of the medications to funeral expenses. I offered to find the phone and go with it. I have a lump in his throat, weeping and pain that would rip my throat becomes a waterfall Florida, a haven of glass that breaks when touch. Today I understand Pessoa as if his skin was mine, now I appropriate his words, but the pain is on both:


When love and death are not know what to feel.

truncated death When love do not know what to know.

Wednesday, January 3, 2007

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a computer, I took control of television and very determined puch the button to turn it down ... the radio. Laughingly reminded that other events where a couple of months ago was on the computer. I remember I did not sleep and I think he was writing. The text should take a break. I looked at the keyboard, I found the button and slid the cursor around the screen and I got scared ... when the keyboard. I swear to God I tried again move the cursor to the keyboard without success. I felt the heat burning more sign of a scare and thought he had broken the compu. I think that even the mind. Then I came in that the cursor does not go down to the keyboard, XD must press the key. & nbsOur company get on the one hand, took a step ... and step on a rake leaning against the staircase. The rake handle shot out my chin and gave me a stroke of God our father and that left me stunned. I put my hand to the chin, I sent the cat to fuck off and lowered to the house. How are you things can not go it alone on drama was seen by one of my nieces and had me in such a state that without saying anything XDDD I opened the door.


pissed I went to my room, cursing the cat to get out, if we were so happy. I opened the door of my house, crossed the room and get to my room I was the placid face of my cat sleepy Elio. El cat was not out there all afternoon, and I knew, was with him when I spoke to my niece!
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Laughter and disbelief aside I can not believe I have come up with a rake in the face. It's ridiculous! XDDDD god. Besides the blow, I am sure will be purple, I gave it so it looks like a fist. When I ask for the purple not believe so many stupid story and think that my husband beats me and / or boyfriend. XDDDD in deeper cube could not drop the chinchilla.